RhythmRose

I know someone's angry at me but.... I know she still loves me. I know someone can't stand me but deep inside... I know she still loves me. Getting blocked because she cares about me....? I deserve to get blocked. Since I got one friend who blocked me, maybe all of my friends should block me. Then I'll end up having no friends. Just like my old life. A family who barley cares about me.... No friends... All alone... Why was I even born? Every time I go in the kitchen... I look at knifes... I imagine all the ways I could kill myself. Watch everyone if I kill myself. Would they just laugh? Would they even care?.... Why was I even born? I don't

Sometimes... I always say "We'll stay friends... No matter what happens." But I guess I was wrong... Every since I met her, I thought she was the greatest friend I ever had... But I ended up getting blocked by her... twice. Now I feel like she doesn't wanna talk or hang our with me. I talked to her once and one sentence really hurt me... "We're not friends." My heart felt like it shattered. I miss talking and hanging out with her but it's like she wish she never met me. Everything I do makes me lose my friends. I just wish I could start over our whole meeting... Or I wish I could start over my whole life.... I wanna end my life....

When I was born, I had every health problem. I wasn't allowed to have friends cause my parents say I wasn't normal. I met a girl named, Ashley, in 5th grade. She was a close and my only friend. By the time we were in 7th grade, she had to move in California. I never got to tell her that I liked her. A few months later, my health problems keep acting up. I started sneezing and coughing out blood. I went through surgery and I wasn't allowed to go outside for the whole month. When I came back home, my family was being jerks to me. They kept saying that I shouldn't be alive and it was a mistake for me being born. Until one day, I started throwing